Food for thought from "Fall on Your Knees" by Ann-Marie MacDonald:
Following the ocean a good part of the way, James discovered that there is nothing so congenial to lucid thought as a clear view of the sea.
And so, day after day, Materia slowly let her mind ebb away. Until she was ready to part with it once and for all.
Frances learns something in this moment that will allow her to survive and function for the rest of her life. She finds out that one thing can look like another. That the facts of a situation don't necessarily indicate anything about the truth of a situation . . . Some would simply say that Frances learned how to lie.
James has caught on: there is a God. There is a Devil - necessary evil. You may be cursed, but at least God has a plan for you . . . But now he knows there are no accidents, only tests.
But good taste is always in style. Truly, civilization is a thin veneer. For what have we to distinguish us from the beasts of the field? Besides, of course, an immortal soul? Manners, and suitable attire.
She is praying for them now . . . It slipped her mind in church, but there is no such thing as an inconvenient moment when it comes to prayer.
There is nothing left for him now except to die, but that will take a while because he is a creature of habit, and he has got into the habit of being alive.
And he doesn't deserve the truth - forgive me, Lord, only You know what we deserve.
Yes, she will confess this sin of pushing her father. But she knows now that no good act is ever unaccompanied by evil. That is what original sin has done to us. That is what makes us human. The necessity of sin itself is the cross we must bear.
I will work hard and get to all those places. I can see it stretching out, straight through to the triumphant end. I hate it when I can see through to the end of something. All that's left is the plodding to get there.
But what has she to be sorry for? A body doesn't need a reason to feel sorry. Sorry is a free-floating commmodity.